a good book, a good friend, ice cream, that california sunshine, a cool breeze, old swings, memories and possibilities. how is that anything but the perfect afternoon? i live for these afternoons. the ones i can drift away talking to those who actually have something worthwhile to say. sitting on a swing, feet pushing back and forth echoing our thoughts from old to new…
May 2012
45 posts
“Do what you feel in your heart to be right, for you’ll be criticized anyway. You’ll be damned if you do, and damned if you don’t.”
—Eleanor Roosevelt (via terriblekite)
“Years of love have been forgot, in the hatred of a minute.” Edgar Allen Poe ♥
“I loved you so much once. I did. More than anything in the whole wide world. Imagine that. What a laugh that is now. Can you believe it? We were so intimate once upon a time I can’t believe it now. The memory of being that intimate with somebody. We were so intimate I could puke. I can’t imagine ever being that intimate with somebody else.”-Raymond Carver
Never trust someone else to protect you, & never forget that every choice is on you. Ignorance of the outcome doesn’t exempt you from the consequences.
Beauty without intelligence is like a masterpiece painted on a napkin.
Have you ever lost yourself in a kiss? I mean pure psychedelic inebriation. Not just lustful petting but transcendental metamorphosis when you became aware that the greatness of this being was breathing into you. Licking the sides and corners of your mouth, like sealing a thousand fleshy envelopes filled with the essence of your passionate being and then opened by the same mouth and delivered back to you, over and over again - the first kiss of the rest of your life. A kiss that confirms that the universe is aligned, that the world’s greatest resource is love, and maybe even that God is a woman. With or without a belief in God, all kisses are metaphors decipherable by allocations of time, circumstance, and understanding.
Not written by me, just my favorite quotes <3
Tonight I attended College Night 101 for my high school. As soon as I got there I was trying to find an excuse to leave. Among 15 students only 2 of us were attending CSU’s, the rest were from private schools (Georgetown, Occidental, USC, University of the Pacific…yeah the creme of the crop). I was open to the audience about how my freshman and sophomore years I failed everything INCLUDING PE! But at the end of the day I really am proud of myself for rising to the top of the challenge working my butt off and doing all I could to make sure I attended a 4 year. I am now working at my school, finished all my GE’s, Im still volunteering <3 and I couldn’t be any happier. But at the end of the day I am so glad I went and I realized something, it’s time to live life for myself. Sorry mom and dad.
Along with this, these past couple of days I’ve been dealing with some inner turmoil thinking about taking a huge risk academically. I decided I’m going to lay it all out on the line… and I will succeed.
p.s Lakers!, really???
Forget the ones
that forget you
LoveLife
My dad wants me to be some sort of nazi Stephanie. I don’t mind the challenge but sometimes its hard just trying to sort my mental to do list. He believes since I’m the eldest it is my responsibility to be the rod that holds the boat down. Everything I do I do for my brother and sister, I want them to be the best people they can. And I couldn’t have asked for better siblings, really.
Sometimes, I feel I grew up too fast. At 13 I was ditching school, getting suspended. At 14 I was ditching school to go over to guys houses -__-, going to “kick-backs” getting drunk every weekend with 40 oz. of Mickeys and Hypnotiq (my uncle would purchase for me). I could tell you the alcohol percentage in wine coolers vs beers. but I couldn’t tell you what was wrong with me.
Well Thank God my life has done a complete 360 and I haven’t had alcohol in 4 years and can’t see myself having alcohol again…ever. Thank God school is my number one priority.
But back to my topic. it’s difficult trying to progress when you have the worst relationship with your parents specifically, my father.
Random ramblings..I’ve been taking summer school consecutively since I was a freshman in high school and Im wondering if I should keep it going or take a break this summer. Guess I’ll weigh out the pros and cons of that once I finish all these papers & finals -__-
Don’t mind me just venting in order to avoid this paper that’s due tomorrow along with two finals.
I love life and who knows where it will take me it would just be nice If…well never-mind there’s people out there who have it so much worse, it’s all subjective at this point.
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YOU BUILD YOUR WORLD AROUND SOMEONE, AND THEN WHAT HAPPENS WHEN HE DISAPPEARS? WHERE DO YOU GO- INTO PIECES, INTO ATOMS, INTO THE ARMS OF ANOTHER MAN? YOU GO SHOPPING, YOU COOK DINNER, YOU WORK ODD HOURS, YOU MAKE LOVE TO SOMEONE ELSE ON JUNE NIGHTS. BUT YOU’RE NOT REALLY THERE, YOU’RE SOMEPLACE ELSE WHERE THERE IS BLUE SKY AND A ROAD YOU DON’T RECOGNIZE. IF YOU SQUINT YOUR EYES, YOU THINK YOU SEE HIM, IN THE SHADOWS, BEYOND THE TREES. YOU ALWAYS IMAGINE THAT YOU SEE HIM, BUT HE’S NEVER THERE. IT’S ONLY HIS SPIRIT, THAT’S WHAT’S THERE BENEATH THE BED WHEN YOU KISS YOUR HUSBAND, THERE WHEN YOU SEND YOUR DAUGHTER OFF TO SCHOOL. IT’S IN YOUR COFFEE CUP, YOUR BATHWATER, YOUR TEARS. UNFINISHED BUSINESS ALWAYS COMES BACK TO HAUNT YOU, AND A MAN WHO SWEARS HE’LL LOVE YOU FOREVER ISN’T FINISHED WITH YOU UNTIL HE’S DONE.
“But if you knew you might not be able to see it again tomorrow, everything would suddenly become special and precious, wouldn’t it?”
—Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore (via obdormio)
“I loved you so much once. I did. More than anything in the whole wide world. Imagine that. What a laugh that is now. Can you believe it? We were so intimate once upon a time I can’t believe it now. The memory of being that intimate with somebody. We were so intimate I could puke. I can’t imagine ever being that intimate with somebody else.”-Raymond Carver
Never trust someone else to protect you, & never forget that every choice is on you. Ignorance of the outcome doesn’t exempt you from the consequences.
Laura Weiss
go hard or go home.
Biostatistics Homework!!
Poli Sci Paper
Poli Sci Exam
Poli Sci SG
Cog Final
Dev Final
Chem Final
Chem Quiz
Chem Hw
Study for Psych test tomorrow
Finish 10pg research paper, I currently have 16 pages I’ll cut it down a bit :)
Lab manual
Study for Chemistry
Get admitted to LEAP YES!! :D
Misc.
Tax transcripts
Register for summer school and/or choose which school to go to for summer school
Update resume
Pay loans
Make a budget
Return textbooks
Finish reading Norwegian wood!!!
Order new textbooks
Fall2012 Schedule
T2 Training
HS Q&A
Volunteer!
Catch up on the last 2 ep of BBT!!
“I did not begin when I was born, nor when I was conceived. I have been growing, developing, through incalculable myriads of millenniums. All my previous selves have their voices, echoes, promptings in me. Oh, incalculable times again shall I be born.”
—Jack London (via moreofamore)
“its time to get gone away from this town scene,
still wants to blame her surroundings,
gotta grudge and a pocket of neurotic love”
“Years of love have been forgot, in the hatred of a minute.”
—Edgar Allan Poe (via decrepito)
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4years today.
April 2012
37 posts
“The very least you can do in your life is figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance but live right in it, under its roof.”
—Barbara Kingsolver, Animal Dreams (via girlwithoutwings)
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